Love sucks

I can't tell if he hates my guts, thinks I'm annoying, likes me, or likes me a lot. I don't know what to do either because:

1) I've never had a real relationship before
2) He's everything I want in a guy.....well, 90% of him really. There is no perfect partner.
3) Men are confusing beings.

He doesn't seem to take any interest in me at all, but since one of my New Years resolution is #2: Be less introverted, I will tell him I like him some time soon. If he already likes someone else, then that's too bad....I'll still like him, but I just won't be able to have him.

I really don't know what to do...GAWD.

Updates

PRISCILLA, I'M SO SORRY FOR TELLING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN THE AFTERNOON! I didn't keep track of the day, and thought it was September 30.....*dies* I'm not good with dates...

But I will make this as flashy as possible...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BITCH!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Lol. You know I love you. :] <33333

Anyway, a lot's happened during the few weeks of school we had. I'm guessing it's September and early October. THERE'S CLOUDS IN THE SKY! o.O That's so rare! And the sudden chilly weather is killing me.

And what are you gonna dress up for Halloween? (: I already know two of you....other two should say something xD I'm going to cosplay as FRANCE if I can finish the costume in time.

Love sucks + Hetalia = Bipolar feelings

Love sucks so bad.....why am I even trying? I can never win at it. I like him a lot but I'm positive I'm just a(n) burden/annoyance to him.

I have never been this depressed. Seriously. I'm going to end up turning emo eventually, so if you see an emo chick, it's most likely me. Though....I'm not a chick. I'm a girl. Haha. /fails/

But....I'm trying to pretend I'm happy. It's worked so far, but my depression takes the best of me sometimes. I need those depression pills.

So Hetalia....I bought that one UK pillow.

I haven't gotten it YET, this was on the LJ journal.

But yeah, I'm (im)patiently waiting for it. It's uber cute. I also bought Hetalia bookmarks/buttons.


The America, England, China, France, Japan, and Canada bookmarks. The naked!France and Waiter!UK buttons.

Also I was supposed to get my Hetalia One Coin Figures, but they 'changed the date to December 31st' >A> I pre-ordered FOR August 31, but no, they had to change MY order to DECEMBER. Wtf.


And now I'm waiting to see what I can spend the rest of my $15 on. Hahaha. But currently everything is above $15 NOT including shipping costs....so...I'm a little short.

Sorry for wasting your time.....

......bye.

Hetalia Updates+Life ((FML lol))

So at the Hetalia community on LJ, some time around 10 PM TODAY (but some of you might read this days or even weeks later), they posted THIS.

HETALIA....VENDING MACHINES. ONLY ABOUT 1.60 DOLLARS ((150 YEN))
OKAMI-CHAN'S PARADISE! IT'S NEXT TO A TOUHOU VENDING MACHINE!!!


LOOK AT THEM!!! ISN'T FRANCE SEXY?!
FLAVORS. I ONLY KNOW THAT FRANCE IS LIKE FRENCH GRAPE OR SOMETHING. LIKE, WINE. 8| AND SOMEONE HAD TEA. WAS IT YOU, ENGLAND?!

So anyways....yeah my life's kinda going downhill right now. It's all good, it's all good....my Econ teacher was talking about recession. I think it's just like that...this year's just been horrible. To me, to Miranda, to Okami-chan in some ways, to Remmie.....

Plus, that fire in LA. The smoke's comin' over the mountains all the way to me. Not a whole lot, since we don't live THAT close, but it's still here. I hope the fire dies down...

AND LOVE SUCKS. 8| HOW CAN SOMETHING BE SO DISGUSTING/ANNOYING/HORRIBLE YET BEAUTIFUL/HAPPY/ENJOYABLE? I HATE THAT. And I'm really sick. Must be a summer cold...

Anyway, byebyes! *cough sneeze sniffles*

Weird...haha. And other things.

I was checking my most popular video (an AlfredxArthur video) on youtube, and yeah, I can see that females loved it. But look at the males...below.If you can't see it, that says:

This video is most popular with:
Gender....................................Age
Female................................13-17
Female................................18-24
Male....................................45-54 <-- This is what I circled.

Ain't that weird? Hahahaha, I guess old men love man on man porn too. (laughs)



Well, in other news...

It's almost time to go back to school...and my friends still don't want to do anything this week, while there's nothing to do....(sigh).

Maybe because what I want to do is not to their appeal? All I wanted was an International Party where we share food from different cultures...I'm not asking you guys to dress as Hetalia characters haha.

Also, I want to create a blog with someone...Kiiru-san is extremely inspirational...(laughs). She's already sharing a blog dedicated to Igirisu with a friend. Okami-chan, do you want to share? Or maybe Remmie? Heh, I don't know.

San Diego wasn't so bad

So I was stuck in San Diego to celebrate the day my uncle entered this world. But I also went to see my mom, who gave me probably enough money to buy me a Hetalia set of figures.

I also brought Alfred, Arthur, Francis, and Matthew with me. Took a few pictures, and accidentally deleted some...

Blew some balloons. But I just helped hold them instead of blowing them up. And I didn't tie them either.
A whole bunch of yellow balloons, attacking Matty.
MCDONALD'S FOR BREAKFAST! HELL YEAH!!The ride back home, with my lovely cousin holding Alfred and his flag up for me to snap a pic.

Paper Doll Stories 1 - Part 1

The Kirkland Family and Froyoland Frozen Yogurt

Matthew/Kanada/Canada: I am red? Maple!
Francis/Furansu/France: Mmm~ =w=`
Alfred/Amerika/America: I'M THE HERO! I WANTED RED!
Arthur/Igirisu/UK/England: Cht. Bloody hell.
Me: ((I will be talking like this XD)) ((Also, the post was too big so I made three parts.))
Wow! Is that ice cream?! It's a big cup! Maybe it's from Amerika...

Uahh!!! Oh no, I fell in! S-Someone help!!!

((Don't worry, sweetie, I got cha!))
Aww....I'm dirty.

How will I get some of that ice cream thing? Most of it's melted...but I still want some.
((Matt, it's frozen yogurt.))

Paper Doll Stories 1 - Part 2

((For some reason, he's naked. Then again, isn't he naked most of the time?))
Bonjour, mon chéri~!
Furansu...what are you doing here? And don't call me that.
I can help you, Kanada. But it'll cost ya, if you know what I mean.♥
This is somewhat not surprising to me.
Oui, just pull me out please? You don't have to be gentle, hehehehe.♥
-___-;
((Oh Francis, I can imagine you as a masochist...))
I'm leaving....well, leaving you, at least.
B-But I'm all dirty and sticky. Want to lick me clean~?
It's just your hair. Just wash it, Furansu.
Wa?! This portion is too SMALL!!! You should've gotten super size!! And what's that stuff floating in it?? The ice cream is already melted!!

Paper Doll Stories 1 - Part 3

((Um...yeah, another idiot contaminating my frozen yogurt.))
Ahhhh!! The hero has fallen! Do not worry, a hero can save himself from a situation like this!
Hey hey hey! I said I didn't need help getting out! I'm a hero I can take care of myself!!!
((Shut up. I just don't want you in my frozen yogurt. And you're stained.))
What the bloody hell is this gunk?
((Melted frozen yogurt. What else?))
THE HERO IN FRONT! HAHAHA HAUUU HA HAUUU~
Want some Sex in a Box with Furansu, anyone~?♥
Oh shut up, you gits...
U-Um....Amerika...y-you're kinda blocking...me....

Amerika's & Furansu's M.K.C. and Others

It's just......oh my GOD......I don't know how to explain it....just...wow. Wow, Amerika-kun. Ore wa HEROO~ And Supaaasiiiiizzzeee~ Just OMG it makes me die a little inside, but somewhat happy. The rapping in the beginning made me LOL, but I really want to hear the 'family verse' of his MKC.

Furansu's.....>__>; I liked the more seducing, sexy, near quiet voice he used in the anime when he was telling Amerika and Igirisu to calm downand change their uncool clothes to a more fashionable outfit. In my opinion, he should've used that voice instead of the unusually deep and mature, Doitsu-imitating one.

When I say 'family verse', I mean the part where they start doing their mini-rap for example, Italia. Like this. vvvvv
Hey hey FRATELLO pasta wo choudai
Tsuide ni SORELLA yude toite kudasai
Oi oi NONNO hewa ga ee~ wa
Hai hai BAMBINO (boku no tama deshuka)
Guigui papa WAIN mo choudai
Nee nee MAMA nee nee MAMA
Mukashi ni tabeta BORONEEZE no
Ano aji ga wasurerarenainda~~~ ((Hetaliaaaa, Hetaliaaaaa, Hetare Hetaliaaa....))
Meanwhile, I found these cute Hetalia cursors. I set it so Kanada is my default cursor, and hover over a link is Amerika, a loading page or busy program is Igirisu with an anime angry vein, and I changed that annoying thin line thing you see everytime you hover over words into Chuugoku! ^__^ They're so cute to stare at, especially when a page is loading way too slow LOL. ((Iggy x3))

Few things to talk about

So I've been reading this all morning and thought to myself, "I wish I had weird, embarrassing moments like those. Sadly, I haven't gotten into Hetalia until my Finals week, so all I have been doing was studying instead of learning about Hetalia.

Although I've known Heta for only a few months, I've learned so much about it than a normal person should. Talk about obsession. I hope I can have an embarrassing situation during AP Euro though hahaha
. Also, Prussia might be in episode 24 of Hetalia. Just saying. :)

[WIP] Britannia Angel/AlfredxMatthew ALSO! Hetalia episode 23!

This is a drawing I'm working on for my 100 Theme Challenge, theme #3 Light. It's really hard to draw this...Ride On, Ride Warrior Matthew: It's still in the vector/outline stage right now. OTL

Guess who debuts in the anime! LIECHTENSTEIN-CHAN! Here's some screen shots. =3