Love sucks

I can't tell if he hates my guts, thinks I'm annoying, likes me, or likes me a lot. I don't know what to do either because:

1) I've never had a real relationship before
2) He's everything I want in a guy.....well, 90% of him really. There is no perfect partner.
3) Men are confusing beings.

He doesn't seem to take any interest in me at all, but since one of my New Years resolution is #2: Be less introverted, I will tell him I like him some time soon. If he already likes someone else, then that's too bad....I'll still like him, but I just won't be able to have him.

I really don't know what to do...GAWD.

Updates

PRISCILLA, I'M SO SORRY FOR TELLING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN THE AFTERNOON! I didn't keep track of the day, and thought it was September 30.....*dies* I'm not good with dates...

But I will make this as flashy as possible...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BITCH!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Lol. You know I love you. :] <33333

Anyway, a lot's happened during the few weeks of school we had. I'm guessing it's September and early October. THERE'S CLOUDS IN THE SKY! o.O That's so rare! And the sudden chilly weather is killing me.

And what are you gonna dress up for Halloween? (: I already know two of you....other two should say something xD I'm going to cosplay as FRANCE if I can finish the costume in time.

Love sucks + Hetalia = Bipolar feelings

Love sucks so bad.....why am I even trying? I can never win at it. I like him a lot but I'm positive I'm just a(n) burden/annoyance to him.

I have never been this depressed. Seriously. I'm going to end up turning emo eventually, so if you see an emo chick, it's most likely me. Though....I'm not a chick. I'm a girl. Haha. /fails/

But....I'm trying to pretend I'm happy. It's worked so far, but my depression takes the best of me sometimes. I need those depression pills.

So Hetalia....I bought that one UK pillow.

I haven't gotten it YET, this was on the LJ journal.

But yeah, I'm (im)patiently waiting for it. It's uber cute. I also bought Hetalia bookmarks/buttons.


The America, England, China, France, Japan, and Canada bookmarks. The naked!France and Waiter!UK buttons.

Also I was supposed to get my Hetalia One Coin Figures, but they 'changed the date to December 31st' >A> I pre-ordered FOR August 31, but no, they had to change MY order to DECEMBER. Wtf.


And now I'm waiting to see what I can spend the rest of my $15 on. Hahaha. But currently everything is above $15 NOT including shipping costs....so...I'm a little short.

Sorry for wasting your time.....

......bye.

Hetalia Updates+Life ((FML lol))

So at the Hetalia community on LJ, some time around 10 PM TODAY (but some of you might read this days or even weeks later), they posted THIS.

HETALIA....VENDING MACHINES. ONLY ABOUT 1.60 DOLLARS ((150 YEN))
OKAMI-CHAN'S PARADISE! IT'S NEXT TO A TOUHOU VENDING MACHINE!!!


LOOK AT THEM!!! ISN'T FRANCE SEXY?!
FLAVORS. I ONLY KNOW THAT FRANCE IS LIKE FRENCH GRAPE OR SOMETHING. LIKE, WINE. 8| AND SOMEONE HAD TEA. WAS IT YOU, ENGLAND?!

So anyways....yeah my life's kinda going downhill right now. It's all good, it's all good....my Econ teacher was talking about recession. I think it's just like that...this year's just been horrible. To me, to Miranda, to Okami-chan in some ways, to Remmie.....

Plus, that fire in LA. The smoke's comin' over the mountains all the way to me. Not a whole lot, since we don't live THAT close, but it's still here. I hope the fire dies down...

AND LOVE SUCKS. 8| HOW CAN SOMETHING BE SO DISGUSTING/ANNOYING/HORRIBLE YET BEAUTIFUL/HAPPY/ENJOYABLE? I HATE THAT. And I'm really sick. Must be a summer cold...

Anyway, byebyes! *cough sneeze sniffles*

Weird...haha. And other things.

I was checking my most popular video (an AlfredxArthur video) on youtube, and yeah, I can see that females loved it. But look at the males...below.If you can't see it, that says:

This video is most popular with:
Gender....................................Age
Female................................13-17
Female................................18-24
Male....................................45-54 <-- This is what I circled.

Ain't that weird? Hahahaha, I guess old men love man on man porn too. (laughs)



Well, in other news...

It's almost time to go back to school...and my friends still don't want to do anything this week, while there's nothing to do....(sigh).

Maybe because what I want to do is not to their appeal? All I wanted was an International Party where we share food from different cultures...I'm not asking you guys to dress as Hetalia characters haha.

Also, I want to create a blog with someone...Kiiru-san is extremely inspirational...(laughs). She's already sharing a blog dedicated to Igirisu with a friend. Okami-chan, do you want to share? Or maybe Remmie? Heh, I don't know.

San Diego wasn't so bad

So I was stuck in San Diego to celebrate the day my uncle entered this world. But I also went to see my mom, who gave me probably enough money to buy me a Hetalia set of figures.

I also brought Alfred, Arthur, Francis, and Matthew with me. Took a few pictures, and accidentally deleted some...

Blew some balloons. But I just helped hold them instead of blowing them up. And I didn't tie them either.
A whole bunch of yellow balloons, attacking Matty.
MCDONALD'S FOR BREAKFAST! HELL YEAH!!The ride back home, with my lovely cousin holding Alfred and his flag up for me to snap a pic.